Happy Summer!!! It’s finally here, and I am so ready for it. Getting to the end stage of this pregnancy, I find myself so excited to meet this new baby and incredibly aware of how much my body is accommodating this growing babe.
Recently I was out on a run early one morning with my dog. I was struck by the fullness of the trees, and just how green and lush everything had seemed to become overnight. In that same moment I had the thought of just how fast the trees will be bare, and the leaves will be crunching under my feet. Then I realized that I will then have a child moving up a grade, staying home with a 3 year old, and newborn, and my life will look completely different. When I read I Miss You When I Blink, the very first essay made me go, whoa! How many moments have I let pass by in hopes that the future will soon be here.
This book made me stop and realize that I need to start really living in the present. Instead of complaining how uncomfortable I am at the end of this pregnancy, I need to enjoy every barrel role that this little baby is doing, because soon I will feel so empty inside without it. Instead of counting down the days until I start my maternity leave, I need to enjoy my interactions at work, because soon I will have very littler interactions with adults on a daily basis. It made me realize that I need to not rush through the present, do a really slow blink, and open my eyes to what the current moment is giving me. Anywho, heavy thoughts, but isn’t that the gift of reading a great book?!
WHAT I’VE BEEN READING LATELY:
Maybe You Should Talk to Someone, by Lori Gottleib. (4 stars). Lori Gottlieb is a therapist in L.A. She has intertwined 4 of her patients therapy sessions, within her own crisis and journey with her own therapist. This non-fiction book is one that will stay with you for awhile. The four patients Lori is counselling have very different reasons they are grieving, and very different journeys with their grief. There is moments that you are laughing, and then moments that strike you down with sadness. I will be thinking about this book for a very long time, and really recommend it. Emotional pain is something that I think we can all take some lessons on, and the more stories we hear, the more feelings we become capable.
Miracle Creek, by Angie Kim. (4.5 stars). This is a gorgeous literary mystery, that I think fans of Celeste Ng, or Jodi Picoult will LOVE! Based in a very small town, Miracle Creek, Korean immigrants, Young and Pak Yoo own an experimental medical treatment device which is a hyperbaric chamber. They treat patients with conditions such as autism, cerebral palsy, and infertility. But when the chamber mysteriously explodes, killing two people, a complex murder trail opens up and unravels secrets, and the lives of the people involved. This is a beautifully written, plot driven novel and so worth reading. This would be a great book club pick, as there are so many things to talk about!
The Farm, by Joanne Ramos. (3.5 stars). The Farm is a sumptuous retreat boasting every amenity: organic meals, private fitness trainers, daily massages—and all of it for free. You can earn some big bucks, but the only catch is that you have to become a surrogate mother to the Farm’s wealthy clientele. For nine months, the staff of the Farm are watching your every move, and the former life you had doesn’t really exist. We see the whole perspective of the Farm through the eyes of Jane, who has become a surrogate mother, and had to leave her young daughter. It’s a great look at motherhood, money, and the sacrifices that we all have to make to grow a child, and then raise it.
I Miss You When I Blink, by Mary Laura Philpott. (5 stars). I loved this book so much. This is a memoir told in essays, about Mary Laura who is an essayist, and a bookseller at Parnassus Books, and a Type A. I felt like I related to this one so much. It’s a great look at Mary’s reflections on her balance with identity, motherhood, and her relationships. It’s exactly the thoughts out of my own head, and I feel like so many readers will also feel this. Her incredible talent to relate to a reader will have you laughing, saying ME TOO, and wishing you could sit down on your couch and have coffee with her. It’s perfect!
A QUOTE TO PONDER:
“Over time, “I miss you when I blink” became another one of these phrases. It helps me live in the moment. It slows me down and makes me absorb each instant instead of rushing, because I know already how much I miss things that happened in the past-how they’re right there behind my eyelids but also gone forever.”